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NIN
The Downward Spiral

he couldn't believe how easy it was,
he put the gun into his face,
bang!,
(so much blood from such a tiny little hole)

problems do have solutions, you know?
a lifetime of ******** things up fixed,
in one determined flash

everything's blue
everything's blue
in this world
the deepest shade of mushroom blue
all fuzzy
spilling out of my head




I was in a rather good mood today,
That mood didn't last all that long, though I hate it when my moods are so easily affected (infected) by that most irksome of diseases, "other people."
While I was at work, I got a call from my buddy Jill.
Apparently somebody has been talking about me to the vetmed counselor, saying I've been getting drunk and then going to class or some s**t like that.
I had some problems last year, and some more problems this year, hell, the counseler I was being tattled on to KNOWS this because I go to her when I feel like things are getting out of control, so that she KNOWS what is going on. And I get an email from the Dean saying "come see me" ... I'm thinking to myself, okay, I haven't gotten in trouble at all this semester, he's probably just checking up on me.
Nawp ! He wants to know if I have anything to confess about drinking in class or showing up drunk or anything like that. I was:
o.O ????
(No, I didn't really make a face quite like that, but that was how I felt)
Because I hadn't done anything like that, and I thought it was ******** up I was getting accused of s**t out of the blue that I didn't do.
Apparently I'm suspect because I was saying things out loud in class.
I'm generally a quiet person, but if I have something to say, I'll say it.
There was this one instance in class where we were discussing a case of rickets in guinea pigs. We were talking about surgical treatment, and I said what a lot of people were thinking: Why would you treat a guinea pig?
Some other instances I can think of, where I say something just a bit off I guess to folk, like when the syspath prof was trying to give us examples of how pattern recognition can help in identifiying different skin diseases and he put up a sillouette of a hawk and asked what it was and I immediately said "ostritch!!"
******** backstabber.
In our "Orientation and Learning Experience" when we were supposed to be getting all chummy and getting to know each other, I happen to mention to my cozy little group that I'm an alcoholic, and this ... person, who looks like she's straight out of high school, who apparently has been following my other exploits, has been trying to ******** me over.
It's okay, I'm not going to change my behavior in class or anything, when I have something to say I'm going to damn well say it.
And, I feel a lot better after ranting about it. Actually, now that I'm finished with work, I feel quite chipper again.