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emo okay, so this is my longest entry for this story, and i hope it is okay. yes, it is a flash back. and yes, i know its a bit emo, but thats just what happens. so anyways. yeah. wahmbulance oh, and this takes place when he was still a teenager, so he still lived with his parents. so...maybe..17 or 18.

he felt the razor blade burn as he watched himself dig it first into one wrist, then the other. he had locked himself in the bathroom. it was one of the few doors in his house that had a lock and also one of the last places his parents would ever think to look for him. he knew that no one would even notice he was gone for at least a good 2 hours, and that was plenty of time. plenty to do what needed to be done. he watched the bright red blood flow over his pale skin, dripping onto the plain white towel he had set on the floor. his blood was staining the towel, and now it too, would never be clean. would never be rid of what had happened. he gazed at it in disgust. he already knew that anything white would never stay that way. it always became dirty. it always became unwanted. and as soon as that happened, no one wanted anything to do with it anymore. they would just toss it aside with everything else. just like he had already been tossed aside. he closed his pale blue eyes and leaned back against the bathroom wall. he was becoming dizzy and disoriented, his balance gone. why am i doing this? he whispered aloud to himself. but it was no use. he had already forgotten why. or perhaps, he had never known in the first place. all he knew, and all he felt, was the overwhelming desire to rid the world and his parents from him. he had already disgraced his parents. and he knew they were disappointed in him. so it was best for them, best for everyone, if he just disappeared. he needed, no, he wanted to leave this world that hated him behind. "soon..." he whispered lowly to himself. "soon...i wont hurt anyone anymore..."

sooo...yeah. that was depressing...and i know it wasnt that long...but still. hope it was semi okay. and thanks for reading it~!