Hey Justin......god......i missed you so much today..i was like staring at the door wating for you to come in ...but you didn't come in.....i was waiting to hear hey buddy, but i didn't......i just can't even realize living without you and i am i.....don't want to think that your gone i still sit there and dream about all the times we have had an i still just sit here.....wanting, wishing, wating, for you to come up stair and me be all happy again......but it wont happen..., why not Justin......why can't you come and see me.....why can't i hug you....i want to hug you right now and tell you how much i love you.....but....i can't....i have to live my day and sit here...waiting......waiting.....for you to come......just to walk upstairs and say hey cameron made the coolest new song ......but it's not going to happen.....i don't know why you did this...?, did you not know how many people it was going to hurt..., did you?, come on you had so many people that care about you.....i mean where we had your funeral was like packed with me people i don't think i have ever seen that many people cram into that tiny space.....i just want you to know how much i love you..., i still have that message of the day you said hey cameron i have something to tell you and it's like really cool but i can't come over right now cause my mom's being dumb.....i saved it i listen to it alot just hearing your voice i remember that day, it's the day you told me you accepted christ.....and i'm sooooo happy you did.....i just i can't wait to see you in heaven, sometimes i feel like your standing right next to me like you know i feel some sort of energy......it's really weird but i really do thinks it's you watching over me like your my gaurdian angel.....maybe you are who knows...but then you really would be my best friend as a gaurdian angel....hehe..that makes me smile i know your having a fun time with your dad right now....i know you are so happy to see him....but you were taken early you were taken from all of us early and it makes me so sad to think that you actually did that to yourself...Just i know your safe in heaven and when i get there i know you will be waiting and we will be 2 scene kids dancing around on clouds hehe.....anyways I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you too...
Hmmmm...Justin....i miss you today i was thinking about you wich i think you already knew that...but when i was at school i wanted you to be there.....i was standing at lunch just wanting wishing and waiting for you to come up and say bret lets go run naked through the halls!!! lol!!!! yeah for some reason i would have loved to do that with you.....but i can't, also we can't talk all bad like we were...like when Josh called you and you basically was just bagging on him lol!!!! hahaha that was helarious oh guess what me and Josh are kinda friends now so he dosn't really hate me anymore....but......i don't think he would have forgiven me if you didn't die, but i wouldn't of cared i would of rather you be here with me but your not anyways i know your having a good time in heaven well i love you bye! heart heart heart heart heart
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I miss you,justin very much,You gave my life a special touch;You did get angry and you did get mad,But when you were gone I was nothing but sad;Now that you've left I feel there's nothing more.A piece of my heart, I felt was torn;
I went to see you I really did try,
But I knew it would be our last good-bye;
I saw your Angel she opened my eyes,
Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry;
I carry your Angel here by my side,
It is in her, that I can confide;
I know one day we'll be together,
I will long for that day forever and ever.
I went to see you I really did try,
But I knew it would be our last good-bye;
I saw your Angel she opened my eyes,
Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry;
I carry your Angel here by my side,
It is in her, that I can confide;
I know one day we'll be together,
I will long for that day forever and ever.
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