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Mental Cesspool
All the little thoughts, problems, and concerns that I may be dealing with at any given time, spread out for the internet to see.
Hot Damn.
I'm not quite so popular, am I? xD I've been gone from Gaia for almost a week, and I had one pm in my inbox that I already knew about. That's it. xD

Anyway. Louis is leaving on November 12th. That's a problem. I was going to go down to visit on the 12th. So, obviously, there's a chance I can't even go. But Alex says I'm getting there no matter what, and he doesn't want to think that I can't for whatever reason, so I'm trying to be optimistic. ^-^

Travis yelled at me again yesterday. This is the third time. The first time, it made me scared, and I didn't talk to him for a day. The second time, he rounded on me when I was trying to stop him from beating somebody up and he almost hit me. I mean literally, was a half-second from swinging. And yesterday, I was upset because I had asked him and Sam four times what they were talking about (I had been sitting at their table the whole time, and they still couldn't fill me in), so I commented on it to Marissa, that I felt like I was talking to the salt shaker. Travis rounded on me and started to yell, saying that he was sorry but there were some things that he just couldn't talk about (which, I would like to point out, he was talking to Sam about just fine). I did what I usually do when I get angry; I wiped my hands off, gathered my plate and cup, and left. Didn't storm, didn't yell, didn't say anything; just left. I don't think I'm going to talk to him today. There's only so much a person is willing to take for you. You know?
Besides, he just became a dad. How's he expect to raise his little girl properly if he's got such anger issues?

I'm not one to judge, I don't think. And I know it's not my place to say anything (to his face). But I woke up angry.

In addition, Alex and I were talking last night. We've started having tense silences, and we figured out why and worked through it. He's so wonderful. I'm really glad that we're together. And he even thinks I'm attractive. Go figure! He calls me beautiful and amazing every time my self esteem gets low.

The thing with Nettie really bothers me. I mean, she just needs to stop. We haven't even spoken in over a week. And you know what? It bothers me. Just not enough to do anything about it. Because I think I've come to a conclusion: I'm tired of her. She's so fake. And I can't stand people that are fake. Granted, I know why she acts like that. I know what her thought process is; I know her mind as well as she does (and usually better, from what she shows me). But I'm just so tired of it. I don't want to have to jump through hoops just to have a freakin' conversation. You know? So I think I'm done with it altogether. Makes me a bit sad, yeah, but I'm not gonna try and hack through your encryptions just to try and figure out what you really mean when you say "I want some boba~!" - 3-

I've started texting Jesse and Kay more often. Well... started texting Kay in general, but Jesse more often! And it makes me happy. I got two great female friends just chillin', always there for some support or just a good conversation. Wish I could text Corrina too, cuz that's always a ton of fun xD

I found out I can check how many minutes I've used in a month! It even tells me when the next pay period is! Thank you, *4!
(This is good because it helps me in not going over minutes with Alex. I don't want my dad to get too pissed at me xD)

Sammy just came in the computer room wrapped in her towel with her hair wet xD She just got out of the shower. She's sick, so I let her step into my medicine cabinet. I've gathered up a ton of medicine from job corps there, leftovers from when I've been sick. Robutussin, tylenol, aloe vera gel (for sunburns!), sunscreen (for preventing sunburns!), band-aids, and some heat packs, just in case somebody sprains something. Or something. Really, I'm totally set for a lot of minor medical issues.

I'm hungry xD






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Tropical Dreams
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commentCommented on: Sun Oct 03, 2010 @ 08:54pm
I wanna text you too! >w<
Oh and about the picture in my journal, Charles is HOT! XD lol. And I shouldn't have smiled because it does look funny. But I know if I would have made a serious face, I wouldn't have came out good.


commentCommented on: Mon Oct 04, 2010 @ 04:51am
And I love texting you too. <3


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