I've been feeling off lately. Like, really emotional. Don't know why. I don't understand what's wrong. My life is full of drama so you'd think I'd be used to life being hell but guess not. So anyways, today I went to Art Prize in Grand Rapids. It was a fun day, had a good time. After, I went to dinner (Just me, my mom, and her boyfriend Jeff). I didn't eat or anything because I was suddenly depressed. I was thinking about my boyfriend Collin, and I'm not sure why, but I just felt really down. I was so concerned about how he was feeling about us at that moment that it took over my thoughts. So that was weird enough, until I started thinking about my parent's divorce. It was just finalized this year, so it's pretty recent. I was thinking about how different life would be if it had never happened, and my eyes watered at the thought. Luckily my mom just thought I was tired so I didn't have to explain myself there. Not only that, but recently I had a little dispute with my friend. She had told her own mom about my boyfriend and I and how we'd fooled around a bit. The problem with that is, first of all, you don't tell your mom those things. Second, her mom is an alcoholic, and you'd think she'd know better than to tell her that. Haley (my friend) explained that her mom was sober at that moment, so she thought it was innocent. But then one weekend, her mom was drunk and hurt Haley, so she called me all panicked. So my mom did the only right thing and called the police. But the police are retards and fell for Haley's mom's little act and didn't believe us. But not only that, Haley's mom called my mom pissed of (and I mean REALLY pissed) and told my mom about me and my boyfriend. So yeah, I was busted. So thanks to Haley being a "GREAT" friend, me and my boyfriend are in a really bad position and trying desperately to keep our relationship in tact. Whew, that was a lot to get out. Can anybody top my hell? Don't bother. Well, there's an extreme explosion of the emotions there, thanks for reading my explosion razz
PS Haley, if you're reading this, sorry but this is my true feelings. But don't get all sensitive about it cause it's over and done with. Nothing we can do now, just try to keep what I say to you to yourself, if I decide to trust you with my secrets again.
Well that's it, I'll probably be back to my journal with more drama so keep posted. Buh-bye.
~Abby
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