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Adam smokes so much.... He didn't do it so much in the beginning, and he always said "it's not that big of a deal, because I only do it every once in a while" but now he does it multiple times a day.... =[
I hate it. A lot. It stinks, and it's bad for him, and he claims it tastes gross. So what's th deal...? Can't admit he's addicted? He's not even trying to quit anymore. After countless "I've quit for good this time, I promise" he isn't even trying. It hurts, and not just because of the broken promises. I hate thinking that he's destroying his body, and that he won't be around for that long if he keeps it up. I want to be able to look years and years into my future and see him there, with me and alive and well. I don't want to look into the future and see my love dead or so messed up that he can't help me take care of our kids, or our house....
I hate that when he goes into one of his week-long bouts of "I quit" and he will get mad at me for not being supportive. How am I supposed to be? :/ I act happy, and hug him, and say that it's great that he's quitting, and I hope it's for good this time. But it never is. I can only go on hoping for so long after being lied to over and over again...

I just want him to stop this.