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val i hope you are reading this. if not then i guess some other people might be. i'm sorry i hurt you and i know you might never forgive me. my feelings for you are real though. you are the only person i love and still love. you are the only person who ever got close to me enough to hurt me this badly. i hate myself so much to have let this happen. the pics don't matter and i was stupid for even keeping them and not telling you at all. i was stupid and hurt you. i never wanted to hurt you and i hate myself for doing so. i hate myself so much and the pain i feel is unbearable. my family hates me and i can deal with that but i could never deal with the fact that you hate me and not love me anymore. plz find it in your heart to forgive me. plz val i know i hurt you badly and i'm sorry beyond what anyone could imagine. i love you more than my family and more than anyone else in the world. i'm sorry i hurt you and i probably don't even deserve to see you again but plz forgive me val cry