Its like I slowly fading away from this hateful world. History is threaten to repeat itself as I try to keep my past where it is behind me. I want to forget what has happen to me from elementy to middle all the way to high school. People from my past thinking I got rid of them which I was so wrong if they are in my life again. Are like posion to me and they won't leave this time even with the help of my best friend. He's getting really frustrated to almost being pissed off by dealing with people that have harm me or abuse me. He's very protective over me and wishes nothing could happen to me again. He doesn't want to lose me again. But these people keep bringing up the past which triggers me in rage and depression.
Which also triggers the voices in going to my memories and being them to the forefront making me suffering. I've been having breakdowns cause of this situtation. I refuse to tell my family knowing they'll get in the way of this since it will either piss them off or get way beyond that point of pissed off. So I don't need them involved in my situtation. I just don't how to handle this or what to do by getting these people away from for good. I wonder why does crap keep happening to me when I've done nothing wrong that was in my conrol.
I just this will end for good and go to the grave to lye there forever and not to resurface for nothing.
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