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so i am going to write this to just let out some steam.

i have no idea what is wrong with me lately, i seem to be alienating people who i really care about.
friends who read this should know who they are so i wont name names.

i don't know if it is my "charming" personality or my slow regression into absolute madness.

all in all i am going through one of the worst fits of loneliness i have ever experienced in my life.
i need my friends now more than ever and of course i am clinging like a man drowning.

is it my desperation that is pushing them away? even so i am only desperate because i feel so alone, so what kind of vicious cycle is this??

all i can really say is to the friends who had enough of me, i do love you, i do appreciate you and you are important to me.
keep in mind i am slowly losing my mind and so the words come out all wrong.

i just wish i can stop alienating people i care about, i am running out of friends....