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"I love you" and "I'm in love with you" are two totally different things, if you think about it too long. Either way, I'm depressed.

Shane is the reason that Tye and I didn't sleep together on Saturday. And I respect him for doing it. And I understand his reasoning, and honestly, I'm not all that mad.

I'm broken right now because Shane asked me a question.

"When are you going to see him again?"
"I don't know."
"That's why I did it."

And now I'm broken because all those pretty little fantasies that I've daydreamed all day have gone bye-bye. The ones where he has undying love for me and comes back after the two years and we end up living together and just... having a life. All gone. All the sweet little love-ness that I hope for? I can't plausibly tell it to myself right now.

I'm texting Shane right now. I'm hoping talking with him will make me feel better.


Loving and being in love are two different things, just along the same lines.

My name is Amanda Marie Moore, and I'm in love with Tye Larson.

That's why I'm crying.