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Questions In My Mind

What happens if we can't go back to normal? What if we are forced to stay apart? Will I stay sane? Or will I float off into insanity? Can he bring me back to reality if I do become ship wrecked? How will I know he is him again? Will he have changed? I do not know if I want to know the answers to these questions. But what I do know is: I want him to come home to me. No more lies. No more half truths. No dancing around the questions that come from my mouth. Why wont you come back to me? No wait I remember why. It is because they told you to. You have made me so happy and so full of life. And yet they do not see it. All they see is another girl with their disobedient son. But I do not see that. I see you: a perfect man who loves to help all, and I: a small girl in need of little protection but asks for it anyways. But as of late I have been feeling so vulnerable and fragile. Some times I wonder weather or not I will see the dawn with my own eyes again. Or maybe through someone else eyes. I do not know. I do not care. I do not want to go on some times when I feel this much unprotected. But I do know one thing that I know, care and want is that: I want you here to be my protector so I might feel safe once again.



I know its really bad and all but It just wouldn't stop coming. And at least I feel better now that I have written something down.