As the title says it all considering its me. I've been damage in so many ways you probably won't believe me. Well no one ever believes me on anything and saying I'm an attention seeker. Well ******** that s**t when I know its not true and some people (well I think) actually believe me.
I've been abuse for so long by other people (never by my famliy). Memories of the abuse still come to the surface and I try to block them out or at least surpass them so I don't do anything or breakdown from it.
All my past relationships with girls and guys were all abusive ones. My recent ex-boyfriend was controlling over me and treated me kinda badly but I guess I know how to find these kind of peoples. Well now I'm with someone new and he's been sweet to me and he promise well swore that he would never lay a hand on me nor would he be controlling. He sees the true me and not someone who needs to be control or to be screwed.
I'm also damged on the inside from different overdoses and when I used to binge since I hate how I look so I used to have both eating disorders. When I was skinny I would never eat or anything, and then when I was put on medication I gain so much weight. I would force myself to throw up so I could look better. Well I don't do that anymore instead I don't eat cause I'm never hungry. So I usually go days without eating before being forced to eat.
So I am damage inside and out but I know with my support system I'll be okay well maybe I might be not really sure since this the first time I actually have people that are willing and care for me.
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~Words From The Unknown~
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