I knew it would happen, I just knew it. Call it a sixth sense if you wish or not, but I'm always right about these...
For the last week, Nicole made friends with someone from the boy's shelter. Normally I'd be fine with such things, but there are times I feel like I'm being told what will happen. I always know when person is going to make a move on a girl, whether I'm there to see their expression, hear their tone, or just know even the least bit about them... A strong judge of character...
It happened with iChan, when she made friends with him. They were becoming really good friends, it didn't bother me all that much. But from the very start I had an uneasy feeling, from weak to strong. It developed, and soon I snapped. Not with anger, but with an invision I dreamed. I told Nicole about my dreams, like I always do. And soon he confessed that he "loved" her. His reasons were immature, saying that if he couldn't have her than he shouldn't waste time living. He wasn't single when he confessed, which only urked me more.
The same dillema is happening. Today, on Valentine's Day, Nicole's new friend told her he liked her, gave her a letter, and gave her his old girlfriend's ring who had died. He made her wear it, making her feel bad if she didn't... She thought he was kidding from the start, she didn't know he was serious.
I trust her, I truly do. But it's cases like this that only make me hate everyone else in the world, including myself. I know when people will, might, or actually does steal something from me. And as I was telling her in a letter I wrote last Saturday, he gave me that uneasy feeling. And well, this happened the day she recieved the letter, before actually getting back to the shelter to read it.
My prediction was right, before even known. And I just have one message I'd like to point out. I hold grudges for the most idiotic things. But the reasons are stronger than they appear. I don't trust anyone in this world but Nicole. And she truly has proven me reason to trust her.
I only wish I were there, so he would be uneasy into talking her into being with him.
Man & Woman's most devious weapon of action is seduction. And it's that very action that makes me distrust almost no one.
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