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Mental Cesspool
All the little thoughts, problems, and concerns that I may be dealing with at any given time, spread out for the internet to see.
Job Corps
So I've been at Job Corps for a week.
I've made some great friends. Found out today that not only do two of those friends know about the spirit world, but they've journeyed there personally and are planning on training me to go there as well.
The food's alright. Better than cup noodles all the time xD
We wake up at 6 every morning. We can't go to sleep until around 1030 at night. If you can't do math, that is very obviously NOT enough sleep for me. I am suffering.
I've joined a self-defense class here. The instructor made a point of telling me and everyone in the class that I have no skill. And no technique. And I'm unrefined. But out of everyone else, I am the one person he wouldn't want to fight. He says that I go into a fight all heart, and I put everything I've got into it. And when I'm knocked down or I'm knocked out, I just get back up and keep on fighting harder because that's just the type of person that I am. He says that as soon as I get some technique, then he'd be very worried to face me in a fight, if he were anyone else.
I'm tired. We have to clean in about fifteen minutes D;
I've missed Gaia, but not a whole lot. Job Corps keeps me pretty busy. I don't have a lot of time to myself, since I'm always hanging out with the people from Computer Tech.
I haven't started my actual classes yet, but I will in a few weeks. There's a waiting list for Computer Tech AFTER that 2-3 week period, but I've got like some of the top students that are going to recommend me to the teacher. They say that since I'm already so good at computer technicioning and that they like me so much, the instructor is guaranteed to have me brought to the top of the waiting list for the class. Can you say AWESOME!?!?
Ryan, one of the great friends I made (and one of the guys training me to go to the spirit world), is totally all crushin' on me and stuff. Loki got really mad today and tried to take over my body to give Ryan warning to back off. Which it was really odd, since Loki almost never takes over, and it's never in public. And the worst part was that I was actually fighting with Loki to keep him out and to keep him from taking over, but he had his "Male testosterone me-man-must-protect-my-woman" brain thing going on, and I couldn't keep him out. He took over, glared at Ryan, said "Back off", and then he left. But it was a forceful exit, and it actually hurt so bad it left me with tears in my eyes. I've never known a spirit posession to be so painful D8 It's always been a gentle rocking sensation. This one was kinda rough though. Loki apologized, but he's still been really protective all day since. I'm not mad at all. Just contemplative :3
San Diego is beautiful. I'm technically in Imperial Beach, but I get to see the city soon. My friend Clara is gonna take me on a tour, since she grew up here.
There's this adorable little guy named Tony here! Blonde hair, brown roots, always wearing a BRIGHT orange jacket. So cute! And not attraction wise. I mean personality wise. He's so weird and out there that no amount of anything will ever bring him back to this world, but he's a total ********. And he's a GENIUS. He's an inventor and he MADE HIS OWN IPOD. He also made a rechargeable battery out of a glass bottle. The dude is GREAT.
And I also had a lovely series of three panic attacks a few hours ago. There's a guy that drinks like a whole bottle of robutussin to get high here on campus. Well I saw him day before yesterday, and he was tweaking out like mad. I saw him again today. I was with a new friend I've been making, but this was the first time I'd actually been one-on-one with him before. He walks by us while we're walking, stops me, stares at me, says "My grandmother was raped at the age of thirty-six." I said "congratulations" and hurried on. I clunge to Branson's shirt so hard. I was fighting off panic attacks and bad memories. When we finally made it back to the dorms, I couldn't hold it back anymore and I broke. Ryan came to the rescue to keep an eye on me while I freaked. He just stood there, but it helped. Really did. When I got to the girls' dorms, I slumped on the floor and had another attack. Right now I'm fine, but the thought of going back outside where the tweaker guy might be anywhere makes chills run around my spine. I can't contemplate it right now. Which is better than I was before, because about two hours ago, I couldn't even think about hanging out with any males because I was just that terrified.
That's all for now, Accountability time!





 
 
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