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Some say it's half full some say it's half empty... but right now I feel EMPTY I feel as if i have nothing left, no reason to survive, like a heart that has no body to beat inside. I feel numb and useless. I feel pathetic for feeling this way. My point of view on life right now is. EVERYTHING IS ******** UP. My friends are leaving me. I am getting to focused on school, I don't feel like talking anymore. My dreams are haunting me and getting the best of me. It's to the point i fear sleeping because I only see such horrid things. I feel like no one really cares, I have no one to turn to because those I want to turn to might turn away from me if they really knew what went on inside my head. My mom and i always fight and now that we are alone I feel we are going to fight even more now. My Life is just crumbling down around me. I feel utterly depressed, and I am finally realizing, I am ment to live a life in the shadows, To have everyone say bad things about me. to not be happy. I am destined for nothing. I am this way because this is a part of life. It is what It is. >.> the one thing that keeps me going in life is now out of sight, The thing that makes me happy is being kept a secret. I just don't know anymore and a couple of months back when i would get like this i would always result to Cutting, but I am bigger then that...I wouldn't do that would i? I don't know I feel down in the slumps on to a whole different level. I don't feel like me. I feel....numb. dead. useless, rotten, that doesn't even begin to describe...SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL THEY CALL LIFE
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