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Why re-type the whole freakin' thing(what i wanna say) when i can just copy and paste from my xanga? i know im lil lazy live with it.

Hi! I'm really trying to act like nothings wrong at school and even with my friends online.(which I might add is perhaps easier than irl because they cant hear the tone in my voice and see my facial expression)But id be lying if I said nothing is wrong but as always something is wrong. I wish my life could be more like the lives of the people in the books I read. Of course most books I'm reading nowadays have mythical creatures such as vampires and what not,other books have their share a mythology.Well anyway,even in books the characters has issues but they don't seems as bad as mine or perhaps any one else's. Why cant like be without issues? Sin is the answer I know but still. I kinda don't want to say much about the issues just pray for me. Pray for my mom as she's recovering(shes thrown up a lot) and my please pray for my dad,I dont know whats up but hes not really I dont know just please pray for my family. Anyway,tomorrow I wont really be @home until about 4:30ish.I wish I could talk with some one. I hate the fact that i cant talk to ppl about my feeling. They are bottled up and want to break free but somehow they cant(or wont). Only with a few ppl am i really able to sexpress my feeling and whats really on my mind. If you want excact number:4 ppl. pitiful. 2 online and 2 irl. Uhm, I have way more friends online then i do irl but what i really want is more irl friends but thats really hard to do. i dont make friends easily irl.Anyway ive said enough i shall now end my post with: I want to be free,like a hawk,spread my wings and just soar about the clouds with out a care in the world. Wishes are wishes and nothing more. Some wishes ask for the impossible and some,well some might be possible.