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hopeless...
kukai one-shot
I sat on the bench looking up at the beautiful, orange sky. I petted the soft hair that laid on my lap. I looked down at my chara, his orange hair glimmered in the light. Looking back up at the sky, I wished that I could fly, if only for a minute....
"I want to fly!" Sora awoke from his peaceful nap and looked at me funny.
"Then let's fly!" He shouted and he disappered in his cloud covered egg.
We both screamed in unison,"Character Transformation!"
I looked at my clothes, a very tight orange shirt that had no sleeves and came up past my stomach. The black gloves came up two inches past my elbow. The black cargo shorts were fine as usual, and my goggles rested above my forehead. I jumped up and closed my eyes. When I opened them, I was above the park. I touched the back of my neck, I realized that my hair was up. I rubbed my neck and sighed. I flew all over the park and giggled when Sora would make a stupid comment. After a few minutes I finally flew down and landed graciously next to the bench.
"Yo,Birdie!" Kukai laughed at his remark.
"Kukai! Just because I can fly doesn't make me a bird!"
He laughed at me,"Your hair, I've never seen it up," He stood up and touched my hair.
I undid my transformation and pouted at him,"Kukai-sama!" I walked over and pressed against him.
"Hey! I just came to get you for some paperwork;" He defended.
"Oh, I see how it is," I smiled and let go,"Sora! Come here!" He came over from where him and Daichi were playing.
I whispered in his ear and he nodded in response. Then Kukai and I walked back to the Royal Garden, side by side.
"Uh...Rei-chan?"
"Yes, Kukai?"
"You know that I-" Kukai was cut off.
"REIKA!!" I heard Yaya scream.
"Hey Yaya!" She jumped on me and swung around from my neck.
Yaya and I walked in holding hands and dancing around. I turned on the radio and sang along to the song. I sat down and picked up the note on the table.

Sorry, Nadeshiko, Amu, and I all went to go pick up the sports fair folder from the library, we should be back soon.
-Tadase

"Wow....They left us....here, alone,"I said outloud.
"What?" both Kukai and Yaya said together.
"Yup," I handed the note to Kukai.
"Seems like we're alone until they come back,"he mumbled.
"Sure does,"Yaya said.
I listened closely to the radio, My world by SR-71 was playing.
The song was so close to how I felt....I didn't want this year to ever end. Kukai was graduating and I hadn't told him how I felt for him. The worst part was that, after this year, I would be going to Italy. I had no friends in Italy, no one liked me there. They thought I was a freak, just because one kid caught me flying 2 years ago.
"Sora, let's fly!" we did a character transformation and I flew upwards.
When I came down, everything was fine until the next day at school.
"That's right! She's a Freak! She can fly!" I heard one of the cooler kids screaming.
From that day on, I was know as 'The Flying Freak'. It was so original...but it hurt when the kids said it to me, or behind my back. Then we moved to Japan, where I could start a new life...new friends, new school, and no one had to know about my chara.

I needed this place more than anything, they were the only people I knew that had other charas...They understood me, my everything, they accepted. Kukai was the first person to tell me that my flying was a beautiful thing, that I should be happy that I have it. I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. I fought them, I couldn't cry here. I looked around and saw Kukai looking at me as if he had a burden that couldn't be lifted off of him.
"Kukai! Play with me!!!" Yaya screamed and hugged him.
"Okay! I'll play!" he smiled and looked as if nothing could bring him down.
Why was it always Yaya? She knew just to make him happy and smile! I would hug him and he gets uncomfortable! I hate that about her! I stood up and started walking out of the garden.
"Where are you going?" I heard Kukai ask.
"Home."
I walked home and cried most of the way there. No one understood how I felt for Kukai, not even Nadeshiko. Yaya would have him soon, and I, would be gone, in Italy.
"I'm home," I shouted out as I took off my shoes.
"Pack your bags.We're leaving sooner than expected," my mother said calmly.
"How soon is soon?"
"Two days."
"Mom! This isn't fair! There are only four days of school left! You said I could stay for those!"
"Your father has to go to Italy, I'm sorry."
I ran upstairs, this wasn't fair! I only had ONE day left with the Guardians! One day left with Kukai...Tears slid down my cheeks and onto my pillow as I screamed into it. No one cared that I cried myself to sleep or that I could possibly take my own life. I got up and let the tears silently fall. I walked into the bathroom and opened my cabinet to pick up my swiss knife. I opened it and set it to my wrist. Today, I would make sure the pain went away, if only for a while. I slid the sharp knife against my wrist, I felt better already. I cut against a different area, I was feeling good now, but it wasn't enough. I heard Sora say that if I died, he would too.
"I'm not going to kill myself. I'm just trying to make it feel better,"I muffled my voice.
Then, everything went black.
When I woke up, I was still in the bathroom. I crawled into the shower and just laid in the tub as the warm water hit my face. About an hour later, I got out and put ona fresh uniform. I walked downstairs and sat at the table.
"How did you sleep last night?" I heard my mom ask.
"Fine. I had no dreams soit was okay."
"Oh. Do your wrists hurt?"
"Nope. Why should they?" I asked nonchalantly.
"Well, they should hurt with all the cutting you've been up to."
"Well, if you knew I was doing it, why didn't you stop me?" I screamed.
"Because I thought you needed to handle your problem by yourself!" she yelled back.
"I'm going to school," I said and left the house.
On my way to school, my wrists started throbbing. I winced and took in a sharp breath. I saw Sora was in pain as well. I put him in my bag and kept walking to school.
I was in the Royal Garden with everyone else when I realized that my wrists were hurting again. Sora collasped on the table. I jumped up to get him but sat back down when I felt the pain shoot through me. Sora screamed and yelled when I got up. Everyone was standing around him. I clucthed my wrist and so did Sora. I closed my eyes as the pain came on even more. I felt someone grab my wrist and forcefully shove the sleeveup.
"Why would you do this?!" I heard Kukai shouting at me.
"Because! I have no right to live!"
"Everyone has a right to live!You were created to fly!"
"I don't want too! I want to fly in Japan! No where else!" I screamed.
"You can fly here! Teach me to fly! I want to know!" Kukai yelled.
"I can't fly here...I'm movingback to Italy," I mumbled.
He let go of my arm and walked over to his chair and sat down with his face in his hands. The pain stopped. Sora got up and floated over to me. I ran out of the garden to my favorite place, the park.
I immediatly did a character transformation and flew into the air. Then I did the unthinkable.
"Look at me! I'm flying!" I screamed at the air, as if someone nearby would hear me.
But everyone was at school, no one was in the park. I cried and curled into a ball in the air. I let the tears fall like rain while I floated. Sora's voice in the back of my head. He screamed at me. Saying that Ihad to believe.
"Why?! No one cares! Not even Kukai!"
"I care! You have to believe in me! I was created for you! To accomplish your dreams!"
"My dreams mean nothing without him!"
Just then I hearrd a pop like noise and started falling to the ground. As I prepared for the impact of the ground, I felt nothing. I looked up. Kukai was hovering over me, staringat my face.
"Why would you save me?" I whispered.
"Because my dreams mean nothing without you," he whispered back.
I saw Sora and Daichi playing again...but he just disappered...didn't he? Did I believe in him the second Kukai caught me? I hugged Kukai, I didn't care if he was uncomfortable this time. He hugged back. He looked me in the face and leaned forward.
"I won't let you leave this spot for as long as I live," he whispered.
I blushed,"I'm leaving tomorrow though," I couldn't get over this feeling I had that he liked me.
"I won't let them take you away," he then closed the space inbetween us with a kiss.
I could hear Yaya screaming from wherever she was. I could also hear Amu and Nadeshiko giggling. I felt Kukai lift one hand off my back and then he put it back on my back but pulled away. I wanted this to go on forever, but I knew I had to end it.
"Kukai, I-"
"No, me first. Reika, I love you. I have since you came here to this school."
"Kukai, I can't be with you, I'm move halfway across the world."
"I said I wouldn't let you."
"Your opinion doesn't matter to my mom."
"Oh really?" I heard my mom say.
"Mom!" I struggled to get away from Kukai, but he wasn't letting go.
"You can stay. I realize that you finally made friends and it's only a year, so your Dad is going by himself," she smiled.
As if to say thanks Kukai kissed me again. I tried to get away, but he wouldn't let me.
"Kukai!" I attempted saying, but it came out as 'Kuni'
He pulled away and smiled at me again,"Let's go."
He pulled me up off the ground and we all walked back to the Royal Garden, without my Mom





 
 
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