I mean do you have that feeling that nothing matter anymore? It a stupid feeling to feel but it sometimes hurt. Like this one time I was looking back but I with too back when I was trying to forget that one time. Sad isn't... I sometimes feel if I hide nor run form it; it can go away.
I wish that was the answer. Please stop asking me but I know everything has to happen for a reason. Like the reason I met with few people and somehow change there lives. I hate it... to do something like that. I don't know why but what would happen if I didn't met these people that I wouldn't name.
Would they be the same people before I change there life?
I feel silly thinking about it but I just wounder how would it be. Well... enough of that but let keep in mind but which would be true? No... let just drop the subject. I have this feeling if I was non-existing nothing would had change.
Maybe the change would be for the good? Who knows...
Well... beside everything else I can't sleep and I been waiting for someone to come back but isn't back yet. Yes... sad isn't but hey I guess that how things is.
Maybe I should stop writing form here as I'm starting to have a cloudy mind even I heard my sister try to kill herself few days. Such I can't do nothing but just listen...
~Ayame
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