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Oki so as NONE of u kno I moved to florida for family/marriage problems. And NO i'm not married. My parents are but not for long~ And my grandma has cancer lives in Florida/Mississippi. Yea thats basically the 'problem'. I dont really care that we moved but theres just a FEW problems.

1. I have been forced to leave my friends in which Ive known for 3-5 years.
2. I left before Christmas SO i could not spend it with said friends
3. I hate the Sun
4. I cannot swim
5. I live right next to the ocean
6. I hate southern accents
7. I'm not very social and the rest of my family is
8. My new skool is frikken HUGE O-O!
9. I cant see my friends UNTIL they get a car XD
10. I dont kno ANYBODY and well I'm just scared of meeting them (O-e which is normal.....for me XD)
11. We have no money, im scared we wont make it
12. My mom has nothing, no car, no house, no anything (we live at her moms extra house with my aunt and two roomates)
13. I'm scared my little brother and baby sister wont get the childhood they need
14. I'm scared my stepdad will come down from PA and hurt my mother, he is why I hate men and why I wake up crying
15. Jamie (stepdad) doesnt kno that we dont plan on coming back to PA, he thinks its just for my Grandmother (cancer) and when he finds out....I dont even wana think about it
16. Wat if am hated by the whole school like my other one? Only like 15 people liked me at my other skool, but this school is literally 10x the size T-T
17. I feel awkward caz when I think about all the things I used to do in PA so normally I get sad and I dont wana do them. Like get on gaia. I hate it now, I feel like its a waste of time. I dont even talk to my friends....thats cruel I kno
18. What if I lose contact with my old friends, I dont want that, right?
19. I want to forget the past and start new but....no
20. My mom but Jamie on speaker phone so Sam (baby sister) could talk to him and I lost it. I ran up stairs into my room, slammed the door and started bawling. Im scared of him, its sad. Even when I think about him I start to cry. What if he comes down here? What if he kills me? Caz I kno he will.....im scared


....so yea...life sucks SOOOOOOOOOOO

biggrin Haha~
xd I doubt anyones guna read this