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I had the most intense dream last night ;___;

It began with unrelated dream nonsense about me owning a giant house, and having everyone I know living there <3
It moved then to an office building, with temporary cubicle walls erected all over, and 'people' were hiding there. But they weren't really people oO It's hard to explain now, but it made perfect sense in the dream. It's as if they were shapeshifters, and a group of people and I were sent to collect them, because they were dangerous. But all they wanted to do was escape and hide xP

Every now and then, in the more random parts of my dream, Edward, from edward Scissorhands would walk by. (Don't ask, I'm just as surprised as you xD ) and I'd get the strong feeling that whoever I was in my dream was in love with him. Because every time he would walk by, he'd be on the other side of a window, or out of reach somewhere, and I'd feel this joy well up inside me, and I'd wave and smile, and find great joy in the fact that he'd wave and smile back.

Then at one point, I saw him walking away with my mother (who looked nothing like my mom IRL oO she had beautiful, long red hair, and was very petite and graceful.) and everyone told me they were going to get married.

I was terrified that this was true, so I rushed after him to ask. Several people from the 'hunting party' before came with me. When we found him, he was in what looked to be a huge outdoor mall with shops and lots of glass windows, and a huge flat, smooth stone area in the center, with steps around it for sitting.

When we finally caught up with him, he was coming out of a shop with a bunch of papers in one hand, and thick locks of red hair entangled in the other, and he seemed not to notice us. before I could call out for his attention, I was struck from behind and fell to the ground.

It was then that several people leapt between Edward and I, blocking my view. I found I was paralyzed, and there was the sensation of someone using a screwdriver on my back, as if they were taking me apart. It didn't hurt, but I was panicking, because they were disassembling me, and changing me.

I heard a man whisper into my ear that it was for my own good, and when the mob dispersed, I had become the redhead-woman I watched Edward walk off with, and HE was no longer all scruffy and gothic and crazy, but a normal, handsome young man with nice hair and regular hands.

I Looked at him, and didn't recognize him. I was confused and didn't know how I had gotten there, or what was happening. somehow, he still felt familiar to me, but I couldn't figure out why, as when I had been re-built, my memories were apparently stolen as well. He recognized me though, and was visibly upset.

My dream then flashed to the large flat area, with me sitting on one side, resting against a pillar, watching New Edward from across the large stone rink, where people were playing, and hanging around. he was dropping things in a comedic manner, and goofing around, apparently trying to spark some memory in me, and even though none of it worked, I could feel myself growing fond of him again.

There was something said to me at that moment in my dream that I wish I could remember > __<
It was something about how he would rather win you over again than live without you.
Or how he'd go through all these trials rather than be without you.

@ n@
I woke up with such weird mixed emotions. sadness, and than relieved sort of romantic feeling you get from heartwarming movies or moments.

I really need a hug ; n;

I get the impression now that it wasn't "Edward Scissorhands" that I was in love with in my dream, but more the idea of someone different and odd. So when he was rebuilt as a normal person, with the same personalities and quirks that I had apparently fallen for, it was like I was learning to love people despite appearance, or first impressions or something >>

it's also interesting, thinking about how I became the red-haired woman o 3o I'm not sure what to make of that.

Well, comment or something if you have any blinding insights into my psyche xD I'd love to hear reasoning from an outside source <3