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Have you ever felt an empty darkness in your soul? Nobody can help or even understand.
Lost within an endless spiral of despair. No amount of pills or alcohol can numb the pain that’s felt. It seems as everyone is judging, and the thought rises is it life or death.
This is everyday life. Waking to the pain, searching for someone to fill the emptiness. I have given up, and don’t feel like fight for change today. Leaving for awhile. There is no need for sympathy it only causes agony. I’ll be home in two weeks. It feels like eternity. You think I’ve given up. This is not the end of misery, because a moment of silence is a moment of insanity.
The hour glass tips it must be broken. I feel the life draining. Inhuman rampage through the soul of tomorrow. Hope seems shattered merely broken. A nightmare, daydream, or an unsteady thought it’s mine to puzzle. I can’t control myself. Nothing well ever change. With peering eyes rattling my soul. My fabrics are crumbling. My existence is coming to an end. Don’t put life in nobody’s hands. That’s just asking to get it stolen.
Please understand or even consider what wickedness I posse. These walls are not to hold you out but to lock me in. Bitterness and sadness home in on my heart. Emptiness and darkness consume my soul. Despair and agony wither my sprit. Only a swift fleeting wonder can change my mind. To save my life.