The day seemed to be looking good till sixth hour. Other than P.E. were we had to run a mile out in the freezing cold..in shorts. I swear I almost got frostbite. Now back to sixth hour which is Japanese. I got a C+ on the big test.. a C+. Its just not normal for me to bomb like that. I'm used to a 4.0 grade average and a B once in a while. No doubt this will bring down my Japanese score to a B which I'm not really happy about. After school at club it was even worse. I find my friend Andrea sitting there with of all people Stetsen, yes Stetsen. Its just to hard to believe that those two are now dating. I feel so lonely first Daniel and Caitlin and now them..I can blame this all on my parents and there rules. I can't date for another two years and even then its group dates. Which shouldn't really bother me right? There just trying to keep me safe. For that matter why should I even want a boyfriend? I have better things that I could do with my time. Though it still bugs me for some odd reason, not that any guy would actually ever date me for I care little about my appearance. I'm usually seen in shirts two sizes to large and old jeans. I do have crushes but they would never look my way since I'm not what you would call a "normal" girl. Since as long as I can remember I've been the freak or the nerd or the bookworm and its really starting to piss me off. I'm like any other person even if I don't look like one, I could if I wanted to spend hours on my appearance and being vain. But thats just my opinion. See I finally figured a use for this journal I can rant here. My point is do I have to dress like a slut to get attention? Even a bigger question is why do I even care? Stupid hormones..
 Saiyura Tsukiyo · Tue Nov 23, 2004 @ 11:06pm · 8 Comments |
