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Spiritual War Part 1
General's log 1: How many times have I repeated this battle? How many times have I sparked the flame for it? My mind and heart seperate into four sections, each with an disability. My mind urges me to forget my past but part of my heart succumbs to the darkness that they have plagued me for over the years. My mind urges me to not give up on love but part of my heart destroys whatever remnants remained of past relations including microscopic crevice that I eagerly reserved for a past lover, hoping she would come back. My mind urges me not to give up my emotions but part of my heart locks them away for all the havoc and depression they've caused me for so many years. My mind urges me not to give up my humanity but part of my heart fights and argues to consider the conditions of turning into a souless tyrant bent on destruction, manipulation, and forcing other people to look at how despicable life itself can be. 3 parts of me remain physically and mentally deceased while the last stands ground hoping and praying to find salvation, I have been forced, no... Raised to be a mental mercenary with friends and family as main targets and my own being as a secondary. I have changed my ways and they have backfired on me. I stand ground with depression and rage as refugee soldiers. The flame has been enlargened with dead emotions of happiness and love. How long until the real battle begins?
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