I guess you could say im not strong,im not Brave, i think with my heart not my head. Im feeling alone. Sort of trapped inside of a ball. Rolling to depression every time im pushed. Im not brave, Nor do i plan on it any time soon.
I want to be loved. to feel loved. by anyone. in any way i suppose. I love Jamie, but i fear im going to get my heart smashed. I fear cheating,lies,and the worst all the time. but i see it happeneing. The only person who ever proved they wont leave is my love, Danielle. I feel gloomy inside. The pills make the emotions sto flowing like my tears. The Nightmares i get everynight make me so scared inside. Im done trying to love everyone else. i need to love myself. Dont hate me please. Not unless i hve a strong reason for you to do so.
I hesitate when i try to speak to someone. I have two sides to my personality. I have a conceded side, and a very low self esteem side. I feel so small and alone these days. Ive hurt so many and done so much damage that love isnt possible anymore. I just want to lay in bright green field and let it swallow me up. Questions?
 Aromatiisse · Sun Sep 20, 2009 @ 06:17pm · 0 Comments |
