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When im alone

when you leave me

no body...wants me

no body will ever care


.............i cant see you any more
i cant hear you
all i see is the shining angels,
telling me to go withthem


but i say...

and i dont know why i said it

i didnt want to say it

but i said


"no"

and then like the flash of the lights, i see sirens and
blood around my wrists

and you, your holding me
telling me to never let go
never again

but i still do it, i still feel the pain
all my dieing efforts are in the vain

THEN i woak with a start
it was just a dream, and you dont really need me
you dont really want me
you dont REALLY care
........ you never did

and then
you still go about your day
not noticing me
seeing me as a shadow, not ment to be seen at all
but it dosent really matter because no one sees the
real me anyway
no matter what i do
so thats the only time i let it all out
the only time
is

is when

i
am

.......alone
Which is almost always, anyway