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I'm sick of almost dying, I'm sick of hospital runs, I'm sick of being afraid that I won't wake up tomorrow. I'm sick of it all. I'm just...sick. There are a few things wrong with me, my blood sugar gets low a lot(no, I don't have diabetes I just need to keep my blood sugar up) making me physically sick, not to mention my liver is basically dead so one more overdose and I'll be "Bye Bye Sweet Suicidal Princess!".I'm emotionally traumatized from seeing my brother die. I hate storms, yet I live in Michigan, where there are a LOT of storms, hell there was almost a tornado...what was it, oh yeah the other day. I'm afraid of blood, and yet no one in my family and none of my friends bother to keep it away from me. It's like they WANT me to die, maybe they do...I don't know..who cares.