As my eyes begin to close, i hear the voice in my head.
Unimaginable calm, a dream unrequited.
What I'm looking for is peace among this world.
Over and over I see the same star shining brightly.
When my voice fades, at a loss of words.
Faceless was the voice that spoke up for me.
I've never been one for worship and appraisal,
but never have I known one to deserve it.
There is no other way.
How else can I repay?
This is no poem.
When I feel as a failure,
Who else can wash my shame
And tell me I'm fine?
When I cry, who tends to my wounds
More than the unseen beauty?
I've never cried for being missed
until whom matters told me so.
I lose myself when she goes away,
I think a part of me goes with her.
When she returns
I've never felt so whole.
To be honest, this started out as
A bunch of thoughts going through
My head that I had the dire urge
To release.
It's turned to a confession for lack of
A way to put how I feel in a form I would like.
May it be a bit dangerous when I put so much faith in something,
But I've never felt so safe in the arms of serenity.
If my trust may die,
May I die with it,
Because I wouldn't know how else to live.
When she makes me sad,
I've never felt so drained.
Reaching for the unobtainable in my moments of loneliness,
I feel I am by myself.
The aura of your body that was never here,
Squeezing so lovingly
my body.
The very action pulling from within me the tears
I've wanted to shed for so long.
The happiness she gives is like no other.
Time after time it cradles my sadness
And lulls it to sleep.
I'm so scared to tell her the truth.
Living without her knowing would bring the worst out in me.
Only in knowing she cares do I survive.
Very carefully I choose what I say for fear that I'll mess it up.
Even now, I sometimes feel her touch that was never real.
Yearning to make real what I've never seen,
Only heard, my heart is cracked.
Under my breath I whisper these hidden words.
They are only seen if you are looking for them.
 Father Fluff · Sat Jul 18, 2009 @ 02:51am · 1 Comments |
