there are somethings i can not say and some things i can but those that i can i don't say because they might hurt other people around me and i don't want that. i would love to see a world full of happy faces and a world of peace but that shall not happen in my lifetime or my childs life but maybe my childs child's life time they will see what it means to be happy, at peaces, and free. but that can not happen unless we changes our outlook on the world instead of fighting and crime why not just talk things through with someone on what ur going to do or what should happen. we can only have world peace if we fight against the demons inside us and not let them take over and make our choices that we regret later for doing. To say to the person the first person who i loved with all my heart there are many things i wish to redo in my life but i can not and all the hurtful things you had to deal with when everyone else would had left me within an instant. i just want to say i am sorry and i would do anything to tell myself not to go and do that.
that picture on the site that we all are on with you in a suit dressed up for the musical well i looked at that for about 10 minutes just remembering what it was like with you around and just a sigh of relief came to me i felt at peace.
i will say this to end this journal.... i still love you and always will i will never forget you and what we did together. and that i am still sorry about everything bad i have done. and i hope one day maybe we can be together again but time can only tell
 Nelliel_Odelschwanck_Ume · Tue Jul 14, 2009 @ 09:36pm · 3 Comments |
