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Well, I have no idea as to whether or not
Vic truly loves me or not.
I feel like, maybe he does, but not like
Before.
Tana says he said he wanted to be with me
forever, to be mine.

But now I wonder truly as to whether
I should believe it.
When we were talking yesterday,
I had told him,


Me: "If you do come up here, just make sure to visit me sometimes, okay? AND TELL ME WHEN YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED so I can see what that lucky chick is like. Heh heh heh."
Him: "Heh, you just might be involved."
Me: "How so?"
Him: "Well, the word 'wife' strikes up..."

I wish I had enough trust in my heart to believe
him, to even truly believe.
But even though I'm constantly reassured and told that he does love me by Tana,

My heart still feels had,
abused.
I wish I knew how to ask him,
If only I could screw up enough courage,
but even so...part of me feels like he'll

never come back.
never love me again.

He loves me
he loves me not



which one is it?