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itz monday 3:30am

2nd time i woke up cryin bout a nightmare i was havin of sean

sean keepz wakin up with me to tell me itz ok and he would never do that so i stop cryin and go back to bed

but this time i just decided ******** IT i cant take it that dream iz ******** me up!!!

so i came down here on the computer ^^

it was so weird
it felt so real
i kno itz stupid but my dream was bout sean breakin up with me
the first time hez like "im goin out drinkin with tyrone"
kinda pissed me off since im an alcoholic and he wasnt bringin me with
i was playin a vidio game and then he told me to do this and that and was like naggin
well when he came back all hammered
he was breakin up with me or somethin then i told his dad jack
well his dad had money in the truck and since he doesnt like lockin his doorz i put it inside for him
he was like i'll give u money just be happy or somethin
but he couldnt find it so im like "jack i have ur money"
seanz like "ohhhh shouldnt have said that"
and i went to like go punch him but im like "oh ho ho" and hugged his head
i went to kiss him but he like stuck his lipz out weird and i tried to kiss him but it felt weird to
and hez like "just give up itz not gonna work"
thatz when i woke up cryin
sean held onto me and was like baby itz ok i wouldnt break up with u
he made me feel better so i went back to sleep
hour later i woke up again cryin
it was different dream but he was still breakin up with me in this one and i was tryin to get him to come back to me
and he wouldnt
again sean tried makin me feel better but i felt horrible for wakin him up when he has to wake up at 5:30 for work so i came down here on the computer...