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my heart feels weird,
is it happiness?
i look out at the sky,
its cloudy with no rain.
i think thats how i feel,
dark and depressed.
the tears wont fall,
and my hope is depleating.

i cant lie to myself any more,
i cant lie to you anymore.
my head hurts,
my heart hurts.
my lfe is a ball of confusion,
but does anyone care?
my whole live i've put my heart on the line,
in hopes that my care could bring happiness.

my heart has been stomped on,
ran over,
bitten,
shattered,
and broken.
but doesn't anyone care!?

i smile in hopes to be loved,
maybey happiness will bring companionship.
i tell people what they want to hear,
perhaps it will make them happy.
in most cases my lies,
and love bring happiness...
but only to others.
their hapiness my pain,
but does anyone care?

my heart cant take much more,
i think of my happy place more and more.
oh what it would be like,
just to be lost there forever.
no more pain,
people cant hurt me there.
i wish i could stay there forever,
should i run in front of a car?
the dreams of a coma get greater and greater.
does that make me selfish,
to want to be forgotten?
or would the world be better off..
with one less human?

if there is someone that reads my poems,
anyone.
am i selfish,
and would i be missed?
perhaps that car isnt such a bad idea,
i could finally be with the dragons.
to fly and be free,
to feel another love me.
should i stay?
or should i go?