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Time to write another journal that I'm sure will piss a lot of people off. But my viewpoint is this, if you dont like what I'm writing, DON'T READ IT!!!!!


So anyways, today was just full of fun. Got up and went over to my friend Dylan's house to go swimming. Didn't have my swimsuit so I wore a pair of shorts and a tank top. Justin, Becca, James, and Brandon were also over there. We were just trying to chill before the viewing of Kao's body. Well, we lost track of time and were running late. My mom called and said my brother wanted to go. So we all went home, showered, got dressed, and got my bro and then headed to the funeral home. We were an hour late but it was ok. So we get there and as soon as I walk into the door, Sam, one of Ayla's friends, starts going off. You see, earlier that day a text was passed around saying if I showed up then Ayla would kick my a**. Well I showed up and Sam went off. Then I stepped outside and some fat lady who I never seen before in my life starts cussing me out and threatening me. I was pissed and upset. A cop who was there had to help me get inside so I could pay my respects. I've never actually seen a dead person before so I was really scared. I walked up to the coffin and about freaked. I hate how they make the bodies seem to unreal and so....well....dead. I cried and hugged his mother and father. Ayla saw me and started whispering to Lee. Then her and Sam and that crazy old lady started whispering and glaring. That old chick glared at me the whole time. It made me so sick. James was pissed and wanted to hit her. After the viewing ended, nothing got better. Still Ayla and Sam talked crap and people were getting annoyed with them. I mean Kao's family said I could come, they had no right to try and scare me off. He was my friend too and I miss him just as much as they do. A lot of the people I talked to were so ashamed of those two for their behavior and said they felt bad for me. All this going on and they wanted to start drama. I came there for Kao, not for them. They need to grow up and realize that life isn't always about what they want. I tried to talk to Lee, cuz he even tried to tell me not to show. When I went up to speak with him, Ayla went off. I can talk to him if I want. He's the father of MY son and I will speak to him when I wish. He just ignored me and walked off. I did notice that he seemed alot less tense and talked more when Ayla wasn't by his side. As soon as she would latch on like a leech he'd shut up and look like he had a stick up his butt. Well, eventually the tension was so thick in the air that James said it was time to go. Ayla never jumped me, or dared to even speak to me. I knew she wouldn't. She's been threatening for the past year now. I don't listen to that female anymore. It's so sad that she would rather disrespect her friend, endanger her unborn child and act like a fool rather than put all this BS behind her, if only for a little while.