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I dream for him,
I long for him,
I scream for him,

I cry for him,
Laugh for him,
Id die for him,

Spill my mind for him,
sing for him,
Leave words behind for him...

I hate it, i love him and care for him. Want him to be happy, so clamp my jaw to prevent loving and hurtful words of my sorrow from spilling out. I told him, he dissolves my mask, but to make him happy i have to put it on. To even have a chance of keeping the love burning, i wear the thing i vowed to never have glued to my personality for him.

I wonder if he can see through it? I wonder if he can pierce through my fake smile, strained words. I wonder how long i can keep it up. Will i break down? Will it become natural... im too afraid to find out.

[okay, this poem sucked but its what i was feeling so i got it out]