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Silver's Thinking Cap
Knick Knacks of an Altered Universe
This tuesday is a very terrible day. One, the bills are pilling up while my kid bro, who has no bills to pay has all the luck in the world. He's out of town again, travelling, and earning easy money while me? *sigh* I AM STUCK*

I dunno where to ventilate this so I thought why not write a blog about it before it affects today's work performance.

My parents do not seem to understand that everytime they open their mouths, hurtful words are hurled towards me. It seems that I am brought into this earth to bear misery, pain, frustrations, broken dreams, depression, misunderstandings, what else... oh yeah... the negative light of life.

Being 30 sucks especially with no money and no lovelife. They say being single is fine, but hell, its not fun at all if you're poor and loveless.

I think this is my hell, living in this earth... I am just walking around in circles while my schoolmates and "friends" are moving forward. How come they cannot drag me along for the ride? They are friends, right? and friends support each other no matter what? *sigh* I dunno what friendship is. All I get are users posing as friends. Everybody has a hidden agenda, everybody wants to network to move ahead...

I am so depressed that i am now lost in words. I do have friends, but they are faceless as of the moment. They are either communicating with me through text or via here in gaia and in other social networking sites.

God, if you do really exists, how come You are so harsh towards me? its like damn if you do damn if you don't. I was one of your loyal worshippers, but what did you do to me? Kicked me out of a big reputation school, 2 failed relationships, and heap of financial problems. Now that I am not active, you made me back down to give way for my sister and kid brother to finish in a big reputation school, lots of failed relationships, and heaps of financial problems.

scream WHEN IS MY TIME TO SHINE, HUH? I AM SICK AND TIRED OF WAITING FOR THAT ONE MOMENT TO COME. scream

im outta here.....





 
 
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