Goodness it has been awhile. I've been busy trying to find a school and I've been working. So I haven't had the chance to come on here often and play around in the forums. But as good as it feels to be back, I don't feel too happy. I've been a deep state of depression lately and I haven't told anyone, but my best friend. She's known all along, but she's not doing too well either. I've been writing all kinds of retardedly sad poems and stuff, but still, I'm on the verge of tears ((if I could attempt to cry damnit all, but I can't cry alone and I refuse to cry infront of people, go me)) all the damn time. But I feel like crap all the damn time and I can't sleep well at night. ((It's 5 am here, i haven't slept a bit.)) But I do feel happy when I'm around people and stuff. I can't be depressed infront of people, another one of my flaws. Yet, I refuse to show any emotion besides happiness infront of my friends...That's just me...oh well..
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