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why are friends leavin...?
......one of my greatest amazing-est friends passed away....now one of my friends who plays a big role in my life is thinking of leaving...ugh.. cry ..not fun. he said he wants to move away and never come back..he is like my big bro and we are and always will be family. and i always care deeply for my family..i made tons of memories with him..in lots of different perspectives. if they vanish away, what will i do then? how will i react?? if i care too much, i think i'm being a bother to him. but he said he would never mind talking to me. we tease each other about random and funny things..but if he left, would they leave with him...? leaving all of my cherished thoughts in the mist to never be seen or remembered again....? i care too much about him to bother him and constantly ask him if he really will leave..but if i don't, then will he leave since he thinks it won't matter to me? ugh. life's complications suck. one of my other friends says that it's "just my emotions"..and whenever she says that, i always have to respond by saying "d#mn emotions..". but, if my "big bro" does leave, what do i have to motivate me? when i wake up, i wake up because i get to see his smile and talk to him after i wake up and when i get to school. i go to bed because then i can look forward to waking up and restarting the whole cycle. but if he's gone, what's the point.........? to me, there would practically be no point. no point at all. no meaning. just plain meaningless. pointless..worthless....useless...
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