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Greetings.
Grrrrr... this is so frustrating! I'm the type of girl that will not be happy unless she is good at something that is important to her. It's been bugging me for ages that I can't draw, 'cuz I love it. But with Karate, it doesn't just feel like I'm bad at it, it feels like I'm getting worse! This SUCKS. I want my feet and ankles to sort themselves out and stop trying to die on me, I want my hips, knees, tendons and lungs to do what they're bloody well supposed to, and I want my ribs, shoulder blades and collar bones to stay the hell where they're meant to be! scream scream scream domokun It is driving me insane. I hate feeling like I can't do things right and I hate feeling like I can't do anything about things, and I feel both right now! gonk crying I just want my body to work the way it should. Not extra well or to be extra flexible or anything, just for it to damn well work. But it won't even do that. On the way back from lessons I've started having mental/nervous/emotional breakdowns because of it, and I'm having one right now. It's hell for me, it hurts, it makes me feel worthless, it makes me feel helpless, it just sucks mroe than I can put into words. I hate it. I just want to be able to breathe, even. Just being able to breathe would be wonderful. But even that is to much to ask. This bites, so much. [/end emotional/mental/nervous breakdown... for now]
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