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Omfg i don't know what to do my bestie josh and i got in a huge fight we never fight i feel really bad so i got him this kitty outfit because we say "i ish a kitty" and so now he really can be a kitty but he hasnt been on and why we are fighting is because i was pmsing and it was close to that tkime of the month and i said some stuff that i didn't mean to and he got mager pissed and i felt hella ******** bad and it's all because i really like him and i don't know how to tell him and i get really worried about him and i cry myself to sleep all the time and i really miss him i just think that he dosen't understand how much he means to me and i don't ever want anything bad to happen to him because i think i'm falling in love with him but i have a boyfriend and i like him but we never talk so i always feel single so i forget but anyways iv'e given Josh my cell number like 3 times but he won't call or txt me so that i know that he's ok but still i feel really bad about what happened and now i'm cutting more then i used to and i'm not trying to make him feel bad but he's the reason that i cut it's kind of a way to tell myself that i can't love my best friend but still i can't help who i love but i really love him and not to make him feel bad again but he's also the reason why i started smoking and popping pills and smoking weed and drinking and why i can't seem to get him out of my mind but still i can't help kit and i need help and i try to commite suicide but still that's why i need you guys advice i don't know what to do so please help and give me advice and still i love Josh.