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my brother was picked on again...
my mother told me he had told her that he was going 2 kill them then kill himself...
12 years old and he's been picked oin since the 3rd damn grade.
because of what he was put through, i was told to protect him even if it meant ruining my golden child repuptation. i turned mean, cold detached, and very strong. i stopped showing my true emotions in front them and became aware of who he hung around. my friends saw what i could do.
a friend had pushed him into the ditch after it had just poured a** rain, and every1 around him laughed.
i pushed the "friend" into the ditch and followed him to help out my brother. when we were at the top the "friend" said i wished that i had i hadned have done that. but i said you wish that you haven't had done that. i threw a rock into the water and it crushed his big toe.(5th grade)

on the bus wyatt (little bro) was asleep
a bunh of kids had got on and 1 of them said for him 2 wake up, and pushed his head wyatt sat up and leaned against the window, but the kid wanted to sit next to the window.
he pushed wyatt out of the aisle and took his place, wyatt stood back up and pushed him back.
the kid now was pissed and started to beat on him.
i kinda snapped. i grabbed wyatt from underneath him and shoved the kids face in2 the window, than punched his face about 3 times till some other kids held me back. (6th grade)


that day wyatt cut himself only for me 2 c him.
he waqs taken to a therpist and i was taking in2 anger mangement(which doesnt help)