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3 weeks of work...

Before I was asking myself.. when can i get a job? I left my former company for personal reasons and was vacated for 1 year. Just accepting sideline jobs and requests... well.. i did stopped looking for work... just to pace myself... and now that I am 30.. I have to set my life straight... so.. i looked and got hired...


3 weeks has passed and I received my first pay check... not as happy as when i was 5 years ago but still it is money and i can buy what I need. But how come I feel something is missing? That's what I am feeling today... and I hope and pray that I can find something fulfilling to fill the void that is inside my being.

To those who have stumbled into this journal, congratulations, you have peeped inside the sad being of me. I don't know what happiness or fulfillment means. with so many disappointments that I had in the past, my being went numb so it seems. I hope that there is someone who could knock me back into my sense and save me from this loneliness inside me... I need help.. please... help me...

well... that's all there is to say about that... back to work....

ciao until next time...