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I want to be able to fall in love again, not the silly love I have done in the pass. I want to fall in love, knowing the person, want to be a surprise for both. I want someone to make me able to make me smile for no pair of reason. I want to be able and look at things and enjoy the view . I want them to know what, if they need anything...I be there. I miss someone making me feel so important in their life. I want to be in someone life and say, "Hey I have someone to be able to look forward tru the day". I want, someone to call me for no reason , write me a letter saying," I miss you..". I want to spill my feelings towards the person and hope that they have the same for me. I want a new begging for my life. I want to be able to like, be happy for once, I think I deserve it. Pass few weeks , I been like a zombie.I know , that love is a hard thing to come across. If I could, get the person I want and sit them and beg them to be with me, I would do it. But, I know in the long run,it wouldn't be right. I want someone that they know,I have feelings for them ,sit me down and tell me to be with them, kind of the way around.Oh to wish to have a relationship, I want to feel love again, but this time true love. I have nobody to call, when I am sad, nor depressed, or when something is bugging me. I admit that I have pushed myself away from people and I like it, because this time is like, I am not going to fool myself with them anymore. Isn't a person in particular, there are many.Just , I don't have the time to name or point out.I think the nice of me has been gone from me for a while.I have learn to block certain feelings, but some get tru, like anger. I don't get sad anymore,that's really good, but I know isn't good to hide those feelings. I learn to ignore people,never did it until recent , and feels good.Now I know why people do it.What else to say...just that I think I sec job...
Will do this in when I can, I like doing this, putting my thoughts out there.