My Life Update 2
My life is so stressful. I know there are people in "third world countries that have bigger problems then me" (Which no one has to remind me considering I grew up in a third world country). My family is so hard to deal with. I know that I act like a s**t head sometimes but that's no reason to label me so cruelly. Let's have a trivia shall we folks? Question one; What purpose would you have to live if your own mother looked you in the eyes and you could see the absolute pure hatred she had for you? The answer; None what so ******** ever. Another trivia question; How would you feel if someone told you how much you meant to them and that they loved you and that they wanted only you and then they abandon you leaving you feeling like a used up whore, helpless to watch them live happily with the one they left you for? And I'm sure the folks at home got this answer; Like you don't want to live another day. Honestly I feel like I want to die. And I know the only reason I haven't killed myself is because I'm a coward. And I don't know if I would want to come back. Music is the only thing that makes sense to me anymore. I feel as if that's the only thing that I'm honestly connected with. Is my life that horrid that I cry to every song that reminds me of you? Every song that reminds me your happy with another girl. Don't you think about anyone else? I see your flaws, but they aren't enough to make me fall out of this loving spell.
