His half mask fell to the ground. His left eye was glowing red, with a symbol that looked like a crow or some bird. Suddenly he fell to his knees, and one hand. His other hand was clutching onto the left half of his face. He let out a cry of shear agony. "Lelouch!" I cried leaning at his side. "Lelouch, what's wrong!?" I helped him to his feet, but even then he couldn't stand. I helped him to a chair, as he leaned on me hardly able to walk or stand up in the least. "Damn it!" He mumbeled. I wasn't even sure he could see straight. "Lelouch?" I asked. "there's not reason to worry." He said. "It happens whenever I take the mask off after a long period of time." "Then why didn't it happen yesterday when-" I began. "Because I was to angry to react to my left eye more visable. He said. I wasn't following. What was so special about his left eye, which was now purple again, besides the fact that it changed from purple to red with a bird like shape in it?
He answered my my unspoken question. "when I was little..." He began, sorrow filling his eyes and voice. "I was...alone. I had no one. No friends...and no family. I was always alone. Always wondering around in the world alone." I listened as he went into his monologe. "I knew very little about my family. I know my father never saw me. I don't know if he left my mother when she was pregnant or not though. He was mortal though. My mother," He said, "As not to see me, made me a present of my first mask! Even after that, though she took care of me as any other "caring" mother would, she still feared me. My face was mother's fear and lothing. When I was three years old she gave me a locket." He paused for a moment. "She had my cloths packed, and a small teddy bear packed in a bag."
None of what he was saying was explaining why his eye was the way it was. I would be patient though (not my strong suit), and wait for him to get to it. "I asked her where we were going, and she said to see my grandma. But I knew it wasn't true deep down. I looked at the locket as we walked, and tried to read the inscription. But I ahd not yet learned to read or write." He said, looking down at his hands. "Any time I asked her to disciper it she said now as not the time. Soon we came to a park where we sat to rest. I didn't have my mask on though," He glanced at the half white mask in the cornor. "As I played I failed to realize one thing, that would change, and wound me forever." I felt like crying for him. I knew what happend. "I picked out a flower for my mother. But, as I turned to give it to her...I realized..." He's voice began to crack. "She was gone. I was alone. All I had left was a locket, my cloths, and bear. But also myanger, and tears. I sat on the bench where my mother had been sitting, and weeped while tearing up the rose I had held to give my mom." I was holding back tears as I saw a tear fall from the corner of his eye. I reached out, and pulled him into my arms.
I layed him against me, and petted his head as he weeped. "Then a girl around my age came up and took my hand and then she asked 'what's the mater, little boy?' Her mother came up as well and she asked 'Are you lost, little boy? Where's your mother?'" He cried. "'She's abandoned me. She doesn't love me.' I told them. The girls mother, not knowing what I looked like, lifted my head up." he said these words with anger, and rage. "When she did...she and her daughter screamed. The mother snatched her daughter away, and slapped me across the face. 'AND IT'S NO WONDER WHY!!' She yelled." He made a fist. "She stormed off. I cried. I knew..I knew why she had slapt me. She was afraid and disscusted by my face. I reached into the bag my mom had packed me, and took out my bear." He said. "It was my only friend, and companion. It couldn't walk, nor talk. But it could confert me. I hugged it close, and weeped even harder as my right cheek swelled in pain. I sat for hours. Thinking..how could my mother abandon me? How could she leave me to starve? To reliy on myself to live when I was so small? To fined off on my own? How could my Fae mother leave me to die like this?"
So his mother had been a Fae! It became more clear now. Fae's were extremely beautiful women. But a Fae and a mortal didn't always turn out right. Lelouch's face being deformed...was because the reproduction of him by his Fae mother and mortal father didn't turn out right. There baby, Lelouch, had been born with a half deformed face, and the heart of a half demon and half angel. Lelouch he was the result of a mortal and a Fae's want for a baby. "I looked in the bag again, and my mothers first present to me: the mask. A mother's fear and loathing. I placed it in the backpack, put it on my back, held my bear close, and started trying to find a way home. But while wondering around I came to realize...I didn't know my way home!" He cried. "My mother," rage filled his voice again, "Knew I wouldn't know how to get home where I was so small! I was alone in the world! I had NO ONE! I walked the god be damned streets, being yelled and slapt out because of my appearance! I took the damn slaps! I took the beatings! I knew my mother wouldn't care if I got hurt! For she had abandoned me! I was and would always be a mother's or anyone's FEAR AND LOUTHING!"I pulled him as close, and held him as close to me as I could. those tears I didn't want to see were leaking again. "Soon I came upon someone so discussted by my appearance to me he took his sword, and gave me a big gash in my arm." Lulu said. "Bleeding, and wounded I struggled away from town. Losing conciousness from losing blood, and struggling so much as to stand. 'My life's going to end' was all I was and could think. Everything was going blurry. I collapsed, and knew then I wouldn't live. I didn't care anymore. I was better off dead. No one wanted nor loved me. They wouldn't even notice I was dead." But he was alive! He was sitting before me! He lay in my arms! My Lulu! ...My Lulu was alive! So something must have happend that kept him alive! "When I woke up," He continued, "I lay in a bed. It was warm and confrotable. I could hear a fire burning in the firplace. I didn't understand. Was this heaven? Or was it hell? Or a mear dream?" He said. "I, still clutching my bear, got out of the bed, and went to look around. I was in a palace...I knew that much. I wondered into a study..."
I had a feeling things were going to get better at this point of his story. "'I see you finally decided to wake up.' A voice greeted me. I looked to the desk in the study where Jareth sat." He said. I remembered him mentioning Jareth before, and Anastasia always blabing on and on about him. "He told me I had been unconcious for three days, but I was fine. He decided to teach me so I could get somewhere in life. I asked him to deciper the locket's inscription..." "And..." I encouraged. "He decipered it." He said. "He handed me the locket after words. I left the room without a word." What had the lockets inscription been? "I stayed in my room the entire day, crying. Jareth left me be. I spent the next few days he taught me much. Music, reading, writting, everything...even subduction. Jareth became my only friend. My only companion." Lelouch said. "One day while wondering around alone, without my mask, things got bad for me. It was early in the morning, and people were starting to come out. While I was walking a plane crashing in town. As it came crashing towards the ground I swore I heard a women's voice call to me. The voice sounded like it was coming from the plane."
What was this about a voice? How did a plane crashing have to do with his abnormal eye? "I felt complied to go see where the plane crashed...so I did. The piolet was dead when I got there. But...I found a capsule in the plane storage, while searching for the voice. I placed my hand on it, and in a burst of bright light the capsule come open." He said. "A green haired, yellow eyed girl around 16, was completly tied up, she looked at me, and fell to the ground. I didn't understand why she was tied up, but as I heard voice's approching I knew it wasn't good." A girl all tied up in a huge a** capsule, and tied up. Definatly strange. "I hid but was discovered by the military. They grabbed the girl, and slammed me into a wall. 'How unfortunate. If you weren't at the crash site, you wouldn've lived. But since you came into contact with that girl, we can't let you go.' The commander told me. But he also said I had no reason to live because of my uglyness." Lelouch told me. "'What is the military planning? Who is that girl?' I said to them. I demanded answers"
Couldn't blame him for wanting answers...I would too. "'You have no right to know. You did give us a good fight, though.' He said to me. He raised his gun then said, "'But...your future just ended'" Lelouch said. "As I heard the trigger get pulled, I looked away and closed my eyes tightly then I heard that girl scream 'DON'T KILL HIM!' I opened my eyes up enough to see her shield me, and take the bullet to the forehead. I caught her as she fell into my arms, bleeding, and unconious...if not already dead." She had saved Lelouch. She...this girl was the reason that my Lulu was alive. "She shielded me. Why? 'Now..it's...your turn.' What was all this about this girl that they captured her, and then killed her? 'Your roteen! All of you!' I told them. Was this it for me!? Helpless...unable to do anything!?" He said. "I fell to my hands and knees. Then that girl's hand moved, and took mine." But she was dead! There couldn't of been a chance of her surviving! It was impossible! "In a bright light it seemed I was in a different dimention. Everything around me was electric blue with white strikes of lighting. Then I heard a women's voice. 'What..what the heck!? Who is this!' I cried. 'You don't want to...end it here...' I heard her say. I was falling, and I saw a girl with her back to me, naked, she turned her head towards me. 'Is it that girl? No way!...What is this?' I thought. 'It seems you have a reason to live...Can you live if you have power?'"
So perhaps this was how he's eye became abnormal. "'this is a contract. I'll give you power if you grant a wish of mine.' She said. 'If you accept this contract, you will live among humans not following th reasons they follow. A different providence. A different time. A different life.' She said to me. I saw a man standing, staring out a wind. 'That is...the emperor!' I said. 'The power of the king will isolate you. The mythology...the rebirth..the connection of Ragnorok? If you're prepared to face that...' She said." Power of the king? Now I was really confused...is that what his power was called...the power of the king? "'Prepared? Very well. I'll accept that contract! I accept the terms of your contract!' I told her. Everything around me was back to normal. The girl had let go of my hand, and lay motionless again. I started to laugh a little despite the pain in my left eye." Lelouch said. "'What should a boy do if he hates the humanity?' I asked them. 'Are you out of your mind?!' They cried taken back by what I had said. 'What's wrong?' I asked them."
He was getting to the part about his power. "'Aren't you going to shoot me? I'm only a hidious inhuman being after all.' I told them." he said with a chuckle. "'Or did you realize...that you can only shoot...if you are prepared to be shot?' I told them. 'I, Erik (Lelouch) Phoenix Legrange, or you!' I said to them revealing my left eye, which I had had covered. They made eye contact with me. 'You can all...DIE!'" I stared at the angel in my arms. He had ordered them to die! Maybe this was why his hands smelt of death. "They started to laugh, and trimbled a little. Them they stood up straight. I stared at them with a blank look. They took the gun's and pointed them at there necks. 'Understood' The leader had said." Lelouch told me. "All at once they pulled the trigger of there guns, and there blood splatered, some of it hitting me in the face as the bang sounds ecoed in my ears. Ever since that day...I've been lying. Living a lie. The lie of living. Lying that I'm "alive.". My name is a lie...My background is a lie...so many lies. I was board by an unchaning world...yet I couldn't give up my life either. But now I have it. Power. That's why...I'll crush light. I'll crush those who hurt me."
To be continued in chapter 30...
