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My Destiny of Uncertainty
Even when the sun stops shinning or
when the moon stops glowing,
I will always be with you.
True love was written in my destiny,
with ink to spare and lines to fill,
my heart feels too far away from you.
My destiny was written, some of it was written for me,
but the rest I wrote myself.
My destiny is locked, locked in the safe of uncertainty.
Always staying the same,
but making my life change for it.
My destiny, has given me the power to see right from wrong,
to see the difference, and go for the right,
but sometimes I like going for the wrong.
My destiny is like a will,
writing itself for me,
giving me the chance to listen to what I have to do.
My destiny loves to play with my life,
bringing back memories they know would hurt me.
But then my destiny and present life collashed,
letting me meet you
these emotions were nothing weʻve felt before.
We took each otherʻs hands,
without stopping to make sense of what we were doing.
We sat on the swings looking up at Waianaeʻs night sky,
letting the sound of play surround us,
to last like a movie, still playing in my head.
But too soon I had to leave, leaving you behind,
and a wound in my heart that will never heal.
It hurts to remember how we used to
laugh in harmony,
play like 5 year olds,
and see each other everyday for a little more than a week.
I remember nearly tackling you a the grassy volleyball court,
and us laughing soo hard, we couldnʻt breathe.
I remember the first time I saw you,
and knew instantly that we were to be more than just friends.
But my memories are starting to fade,
and your dissapearing, leaving an abyss of darkness
for me to try and search for you, stumbling head over heels,
feeling stupid for not having a flashlight.
You were mine, and I was yours.
Now all I do is daydream,
and hope to see you once again,
only is my dreamares had these things happened.
After one of these dreamares,
my memories are stronger than ever.
The first time we spoken to each other,
the first time we played,
the first we laughed together,
and our first sight of one another.
At times i pretend to be whole,
that I donʻt feel the pain to see you again.
It inflames me, making my breaths slow and
my heart stop.
I can feel my destiny getting further and further away,
making me more and more uncertain.
This is when I realized that you were to be a part
of my destiny, but sometimes,
I donʻt think you shouldʻve been.
But Iʻm still thankful for meeting you.
This is my destiny of uncertainty.
Somewhere out there I lost you,
but now all I want is to have you back,
back when we used to be friends,
When you would fill my days with hope,
and the memories that weʻve spent together,
will forever be cherished in my safe of uncertainty.
And the emotions that we were feeling,
were nothing weʻve ever felt before are uncertain.
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