Wewt!! Once again... things have changed lol
I'm not with my boy anymore, he can't get over his ex-gf... he saw her and she is preagnant, I know that's sad because he said yes when he asked to marry him and then said no <.< And now he finds her preagnant... Anyway!! Makes me more sad that he can't get over her confused It's been more than a year since they broke up =/ I'm sad, of course, because I was having a great time, he became a very important part of my life... he was with me when I got my first and second job, he was in my prom, I went with him on my first "payed by me" vacations. Well, so many things he told me about ending things... and after a week I find out that he saw his ex xD Well, don't know what to think...
I quitted my job lol, it was too exhaustive from 9am to 9pm, last week I was there until 4am 3 times, so I had to say bye xD My social life was ending, my family life and everything was changing. My grandma died, doctors found cancer in her around october, they gave her more time so it was really unexpected... So, I was there in the top of my life! A nice boy, good salary, everything was going great. And then poof! In feb 9th my life was completly different. I started to gain my social life back though.
Anyways... On feb 21th my life changed again lol. It's like a new start, I went out with this friend of mine, Enrique, I adore him, he's almost like a big brother to me. He's 32, met him at the same time I met Ricardo. He really opened my eyes the harsh way, I was so stucked on the "why did we broke up" thing, everything he told me made sense, gosh... I can't even belive it lol. A week before I wanted to erase all of Ricardo's messages and I couldn't do it... that saturday I erased them all, Enrique said I don't need a message to remember that anything happened. And I don't need them! What was, it was... And I'm glad it did, but it won't be ever again. I don't think I'll go back with Ricardo, I love him and all... but I decided that this last monday I would start a new life, everybody that talked to me that day would be a part of my new life... he didn't even sent me a good luck message for my new job, and I'm fine with it. I cried so hard on Enrique's arms last saturday and promised him I wouldn't cry for Ricardo ever again. And I haven't... I can talk about him without any heart feelings, and it's great!! I have a job that I like (I'm supervising the construction of a new building for the airport), I'm gaining my friends back, everything is great!
Yesterday I had this stupid smile in my face when I was coming home (at 6pm!!) I just feel great, awesome, supreme, magnificent... Ricardo called me yesterday when I got home I want to hate him lol, I want to tell him how amazing I'm and I want him to miss me sweatdrop
Well, you can tell my head is a puzzle right now, nee? But I'm working on it, getting over it and enjoying my new life!! biggrin
AvenaMX Community Member 
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