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My best friend growing up was a male. My sister dated him on and off for maybe 8 years of her life.... Over all he seemed to understand me and my views we never argued about anything. As we got older people began to accuse him of being Gay. Simply put the boy had never had any real male role models in his life so had no idea how he should be acting. I asked him if he was gay and he said 'no' since he was my friend and I loved him like he was my brother I believed him. I even defended his honor by asking the people accusing him if my sister looked like a guy... there reaction was always to blink at me and look confused...



I would then explain that my sister had dated him for most of our lives and that he didn't even get any male friends until the end of middle school. This usually made the masses shut up for a little while... So for 18 years of my life and his I had protected his honor. Now that we are out of school he had been dating one of my friends. At the end of summer he dumps her and starts dating a guy... simply put I was speechless... I had asked him if he was gay he said ‘no’ I defended his honor and didn’t even get a thank you.... and now I’m the last person to know that he came out of the closet and is dating a guy.... I fully support homosexual lifestyles and what not as anyone could tell by my ‘gay? fine by me.’ T-shirt....



I’m also an active member of our local gay/straight alliance.... so this all came as a bit of a surprise to me... I mean he knew I was openly supportive of the homosexual lifestyle, he knew I loved him like a brother and shared everything with him... and for 18 years of my life I always sided with him during his drama filled periods of life.... now coming to find this out I was incredibly hurt... I mean I’d always been there for him and been supportive of everything he chooses to do in life... so why am I the last to know? Why didn’t I get told sooner? Why am I a last resort for any of his problems? I really don’t understand what he was thinking. I really don’t and generally during his life I was always hearing him talk about girls how sexy they are and all about his sex life... this didn’t bother me because he still had a modicum of respect for women.... or at least from what I could tell he did. I mean is it really that hard to tell people you know can keep a secret and support you fully in everything and that they understand perfectly what you are and wouldn’t treat you any different something like this?


I can understand not wanting to tell his family or even a majority of his other friends because they can’t keep secrets or something like that. But I trusted him and he trusted me... or so I thought. This may just be an angry rant but I would truly like to know what the hell am I missing? I’ve always given him really good advice to apply to his life that always worked out perfectly for him.... yet it seems I’ve missed the most important things about him.... now a days we hardly talk... I don’t have any phone numbers or an address to reach him by... yet he has both my phone number my cell phone number and my home address all of which he knows by heart... before summer he promised me that I wouldn’t drop off the face of the planet during summer and that’s exactly what happened.... am I not a good enough friend? Have I shown in some odd way that I’m not a good companion? Have I made him feel inferior in some way? I really don’t know... I’m just really tired and confused... sorry for unloading all this onto whoever reads it but it needed to come out....