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so . . .
i've been feeling like s**t lately.
i've been keeping this locked up for a while.
no, i haven't been cutting/drinking/smoking.
i just, don't have anyone to vent to anymore.
ever since i lost, what i thought was, a best friend, i don't have any real girl friends i can completely trust and vent out to.
and, i guess, that she is one of the reasons that i feel so shitty.
i mean, finally finding out that a friend that you thought you could die for, didn't remember half of the things you remember doing together isn't the greatest feeling.
and losing her, meant drifting away from other friends.
ever since finding out, i've been keeping things to myself a lot.
i'm more secure and more independent.
but i feel that, now, i'm... not alone, but more isolated from things i shouldn't be.
as in being able to actually talk to someone.
face to face.
that i can completely trust.
it's just hard.
everything seems so new now, yet so vacant.
i've also been feeling the need to cry, recently.
but, i just can't. and i feel it's because i truly don't know the reason.
 rhythmic memories · Fri Jan 23, 2009 @ 02:27am · 1 Comments |
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