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I kinda hate for my first entry of 2009 to be a little unhappy but whatever.I recently sorta 'relived' half of my life as far back as i can remember and I had a break through.MY CHILDHOOD SUCKED!!!Yeah yeah I know almost everyone says that but I just wanna get this down.My dad is a sexist,homopobic,a*****e butt pirate!!My real 'mother' never really wanted me and the 'mother' I grew up with didn't know how to act like one and yelled at me for not being the adopted daughter she always wanted.I remember her telling me that if I wasn't perfect she would give me away.And when we were in the city one summer one very horrible thing happened to me that I got over but it still haunts me till this day and only a few people know about.Talk about OUCH!My sister has always been and always will be my true mother.I love her so much.When we were both growing up she acted like a mother and if I had a bad dream she would let me stay with her.As we both got older we grew a bit apart but the bond never broke and it never will.As I got older I got more angry with how my life had been and I started to take that anger out on other people which I now regret doing.And then when I got into highschool I began to put on fake smiles and I acted stupid and goofy to hide how I truly feel and I always try to put others before me.Thats why I wanna becoma a therpist and help other people and make them happy.........I just want people to be happy and have a wonderful life.