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what do i do when the love of my life is going insane?
why wud god let something so horrible happen?
so many questions without answers haunt me.
today i felt like i was looseing him..
no one knows what we are going through.
becuz we r just stuipd teenagers and no one gives a s**t about how we feel.
this mite sound what they call emo butt its not.
its life.
im only thirteen, butt people say i now things that a 20 year old wud know.
they say im wise, and i can figure things out..
no matter what situati0n it is.
i dont need there stuipd ******** opions on me.
even if it is good.
im only thirteen.
and ive seen so much.
they person i love is going insane..
he says that he was stareing at me..
seeing me holding a nife up to his neck..
after he told me that.. he says that we shud go in the kitchen and
make it come to life..
what im supposed to do??
someone please tell me.
there is no god.
how cud he let this happen.
i dont care anymore.
ill say it.
THERE IS NO ******** GOD
all these people beilve in faith,
and a "god" that can solve every little problem
and save us
from evil.
how can i be scared of demans and hell when i die
if its already happening?
sure i hear the demans ,
screeching inside my head.
nothing can hush them
not even the sharpest blade,
not even the strongest pills,
not even a "GOD"
can shut them up.