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Lemme start off with a story see there was this girl right? low self esteem no self worth no nothing she hated herself so much she wanted to die and not just die killer herself in the most painful way possible she thought she would do the world a favor and kill her self painfully because ugly things such as her deserved it because thats what she was told by friends classmates parents strangers all of them and of course, she believed them after holidays were done

during the holidays she met someone he was kind sweet a gentleman a loving caring HUMAN BEING
see after the torture she lived through for YEARS she picked up her cracked heart and fixed it as best she could, it was almost perfect now few little paint scratches and a small dent or 2 she decided to give her heart to him not wanting anything in return he gave her his heart as well but she didnt know it at the time but it wasnt his whole heart... the hoildays ended and they had to part she still loved him tho and never really got her heart back but she gave his back because as much as she hated it they were too far
so her heart broke in half not always because she still had hope that they would meet again and love each other as before

so she found a guy at school, first one she saw actually that seemed good enough she fell in lust pretty badly cuz she just wanted some to care for and since he was unavailable the other would have to do then she met another guy he seemed to be interested in her so she decided why not... especially in some lights their hair colour looked similar so she could pretend it was him
the relationship didn't last long she liked him better as a friend then a boyfriend when they broke up she wasnt so sad... she felt guilty but didnt know why so she brushed it off and went back to pining over the other

he was an a** kept breaking her fragile heart more and more each day cracking it stomping on it just trying to break it and then there was another now thats another story but a whole bunch of people now kicked her when she was down and then brought another guy in who also smashed her heart every time she kept fixing it and fixing it some wounds were worse then others
why did she keep on fixing it well she wanted her heart in perfect condition when she saw him again

it was only when they found each other again did she notice the others were just there... a form of therapy for her... she felt bad yet when they met her heart was in shambles so she worked hard trying to fixing it with the pieces that she had and managed to get some of it fixed so she gave that to him and searched the universe for the ones that were lost there was only one piece and a really big one at that that he still had so as she was finally about to give everything to him she finds out he had another for three whole weeks he told her he loved her two weeks later a hussy came in form the streets, an ugly one that that with a huge pointed nose like a witch and grabbed him put him under her spell

now she got mad really really really mad and got into a fight with him it hurt her to do so but she needed to say something he guessed the reason for her anger yet seemed like he didnt know what was going on i mean they kept it a secret too! for ******** sake well she tried ti calm down she wanted to ask him why tell her he loved her then forget about her yet he still flirted with her all the time and when she was calming down he had the nerve to call her by what he did before a form of endearment
earlier on she thought he was kidding maybe so she didnt cry all her will was put into that and kept waiting for him to say something until he told her. about the hag and she cried and cried and never stopped she wanted to kill herself it was all planned looking at a collage of pictures she made of him she would kill her self but she changed her mind she was gonna be strong she was gonna whip her lazy sorry a** into shape cuz the net time shell see him he will beg to have her back. and of course she wont let him beg she still loves him after he broke her heart into dust particles and brought in a huge wind to blow it all away she still loves him he still has her heart with him so now shell go again and pick up the pieces and wait for him to realize he is a jackass and to realize what he did was wrong i mean he would end their conversations with a kiss when he was with that girl... he looked at her videos and her pictures how she knew well he told her well he asked about stuff that happened she was the first to wish him a happy birthday the first and he was happy about it they talked about when they were gonna hang out next
and now when she told him GOODBYE FOREVER he never answered im sorry but being your friend isnt good enough
so go on to your slut i can tell you everything y cant you tell me hm? yeah thats right like AHHH

WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME YOU LOVED ME AND THEN GET A WHORE RIGHT AFTER I DONT JUST TELL PEOPLE I LOVE THEM I ******** MEAN IT OF COURSE IM MAD BECAUSE OF THAT CANT YOU TELL IVE LOVED YOU FOR 2 YEARS AND I HAVENT ******** STOPPED FOR ONE SECOND WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING MY BEST FRIEND MY CONFIDENCE YOU ONLY YOU IM NOT JUST ******** AROUND I ******** LOVE YOU.... why dont you feel the same way... i thought you did i guess this is where always and forever comes in... oyu might not ever get it back well i just love you too much to take it back and give it away for another will never have my heart so for their sake please...









Always and forever


Your love echoes through the mountains
Touches the seas and sings to the moon
Until it reaches me
Where I'll hold it tight and never let go
On the wings of a dove will come the answer
You have my heart always and forever
Hold it tight and never let go
You might not ever get it back again
We'll make it through the storms
We'll make it through the calm
Until the end I'll never let go
I'll remember forever and a night
The echo of true love
I hope you do the same
For the sake of another
He will never have my heart or love
So keep it close
Keep it safe
You are the love of my life, my everything
Don't ever forget

I LOVE YOU


written by Ivana Pirsic COPYRIGHTED